A lot’s going through my mind right now. Amy and I are about to have a second child wich will add a fourth to our collection of children. This is what I always wanted and now I have it with the most perfect woman in the world. I can’t wait to start mixing formula again and all the other wonderful events that ocurr with infants.
So, who is the little child? I feel like I know this child but not in the same way that I know Max. I have to define this because it could be that both kids have the same psychic impact on me. The only thing that makes Max different is that he was the first–my first and that makes his situatuation unique.
I used to complain that I didn’t see any clues that this was coming like I did with Max but, that’s not true. The medical symptoms were identical. The psychic messages that this child was on the were all there and what about the fact that I kept hearing in my head, “but there is another…”
Why didn’t Amy or talk about contraception? It’s as though this child was always out there–like Max talking to both of us or me at least telling us, “wait, wait! I want to be with you too–you won’t regret it.”
This is what’s on my mind right now. I should probably get back to work and meditate on “the little one” later.
